helloo...
YAY!! i have something to blog about...
ahhahaha..

i think im dying soon...ahaha...
i've had a couple of dreams now, of myself dying..ahaha..and its super scary...
suffocating to death, being blown up...hahaha..wahh..
that is why..i think i can conclude that...
after my top fear of horror issues..my next fear will be dying..ahahaha...

my daddy says that i shouldnt be afraid to die because it is a good thing..i just have to remember god and the ten commandments...then i wont be afraid anymore..

others say that dying will be better because the world is too cruel to live in...

The Rose-Westlife lyrics says..
"and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live"

all these advices doesn't really beat the feeling of death coming for you...
if i know im going to die, i think i will cry a whole bucket full of tears..because i will really miss my family, if i ever go before anyone of them..

i wonder if my daddy or anybody ever really thought of death before they said that death is not scary...it is really a super scary thing...imagine you are out at school..and then you die in school..you dont even get to see your family before you die...i know you may see them from heaven, but its a totally different thing..you cannot touch them or talk to them anymore..ahhhhh.....scary okkkk...even worst...if you thought tomorrow is going to be just another good day, but then you just suffer a heart attack and die..the moment you close your eyes, you are dead.....you wont see the world anymore...

im feeling so paranoid i hate it...those dreams are really making me so cowardly...one day, i will lose my courage and guts..ahahaha..

hmm..other than dying, my lovely classmates are actually watching japanese dramas...ahahaha...LOVELYYYYY...gokusen first and now nobuta!!can you believe it...
NOBUTA...with my yamapi in it..ahahaha..I LOVE YAMAPI!!ahahaha.. nobuta power..chu nyu!!KON KON! bye bye cycle!!ahahaha..

yesyesss..more projects on the way..i made new jap frens last thurs...i had my long-awaited kbox session last fri..so im very satisfied at the moment..hahaha..i will need mroe rest if all my projects are to be done on time...so..im going off now..
aahahaha...i hope i wont be so bothered about dying anymore...ahhhh...

byeeeee bye cycle!!hahaha...


my jap friends...i miss them!!


our rings..hahaha..so pretty!!!